Monday, May 21, 2012

Small blessings

On my last day serving at St. Andrew's, I got a blessing.

Not just any blessing.  This was a special one offered by the smallest of the congregation - the children with whom I have shared story time over the last year.  Kneeling in the center aisle amidst the people, I closed my eyes as Mother Jenny offered a prayer.  Each child found a space on my alb, head, shoulders and arms to lay their hands on me for their part in this blessing.  As the prayer began, one small child reached under the arm of another to slip her fingers into my open fingers, closing her hand onto mine. 

I took a deep breath, squeezing my eyes closed, holding back tears of joy.  What a sacred moment! 

How much does God reach out and touch us, through the hands of others, especially the little ones?
How graciously the Holy Spirit moves in surprising places?

So much! So graciously!  Thanks be to God.

Happy are the people to whom such blessings fall; happy are the people whose God is the Lord
- Psalm 144:15

Monday, May 7, 2012

Breathing-song

They say, when you chant or sing hymns, you pray twice.
Could that be why is it so much fun? 

Last week, while leading the seminary's chanted Evening Prayer, "Evensong,"  I found myself belting out the "O Gracious Light" and getting in the groove. 

I felt invigorated by the rhythmic breathing required to chant according to these so-called "simplified" tones.  They aren't really simple - in fact, they require quite a bit of attention.  So, while chanting, I squint to read the tiny notes in sharp and flat, I sense encouragement from master-chanter-David L., and I am buoyed by corrective adjustments from soprano-guide-Cameron S.

I notice my breath, I notice the tones, I smell the scent of incense, I notice the cloud floating up to the ceiling, I see the icon on the altar, I feel the presence of fellow pray-ers.

This is not about me - it's about us all, gathered, attempting to sing together and carry the tunes.  It's about worshiping God whose tones know all the harmonies and hold them together.


What songs are you breathing today?

Psalm 141.2:  Let my prayer be counted as incense before you, and the lifting up of my hands as an evening sacrifice.

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Sermon ~ Unexpected


Sermon for Easter 2, Year B
St. Andrew’s Episcopal Church, Arlington, VA

Last Friday in the Washington Post,
I saw an article[1] about Good Friday –
about faith and doubt. 
At  the author’s Shabbat services,
the prayer leader asked kids
what part of the Exodus story they liked best. 
The children responded –
The parting of the Red Sea!
Miriam’s dance with the tambourine!
The frogs!

However, there was one little child who replied,
“Oh, I don’t believe it.”
While his mother tried to shush him,
the author considered this a “teachable moment.” 
Many of the bible stories are unbelievable,
and yet God keeps visiting in unexpected ways –
a bush on fire that does not burn,
a staff flung down that turns into a serpent,
a Red Sea, parted,
A carpenter, executed as a criminal,
comes to life and greets his followers. 
Death was not the end of these stories –
and God showed up, in unexpected ways.

In today’s Gospel text, we read of one more person
who does not believe the story. 
On the evening of the first day of the week
after Jesus appeared to Mary, the disciples gathered. 
·        There, in the same upper room
as the previous week’s supper,
they huddled together. 
·        There, they locked the doors,
fearful of the Jews (the religious authorities).
·        There, they spoke softly, kept the lights low, and
in the lengthening shadows of that evening,
their eyes shifted as they exchanged glances. 
·        There, they considered Mary,
who had just the day before, said to them,
“I have seen the Lord!”
·        There, unbelievably, Jesus came and stood among them.

He showed up, unexpectedly. 
“Peace be with you!” he said and
he showed them his hands
and he showed them his wounds.

As a wave of relief swept through the room,
their shoulders loosened,
their jaws relaxed,
their breathing deepened,
and their circle widened.

They were overjoyed with Jesus in their midst;
but joy was not his goal. 
They leaned in and to listen to him.



Unexpectedly,
he breathed on them the Holy Spirit and
told them the rest of the story –
that they, as disciples, had the authority and
responsibility to forgive and retain sins.
And in their glee,
they agreed to meet back in this same place.

A week later, Thomas joined them. 
He had not been there earlier. 
The other disciples
had forgotten their disbelief of Mary and
had told Thomas, “We have seen the Lord!” 
Thomas replied like the child at Shabbat Services
that he didn’t believe it.

“Unless I see the nail marks in his hands and put my finger where the nails were, and put my hand into his side, I will not believe it.”

Even though he must have known the stories about
the burning bush,
the serpent-turning staff,
the parting Red Sea,
he still wanted proof.

The story had to fit into a narrowly defined,
concrete way of looking at things. 
He was unwilling to accept secondhand testimony. 
He seemed to know that
there would be others, like him,
who had not seen Jesus and
would not believe that
God really did have victory over death. 
For him, the story was over.
Does this sound familiar? 
Many people today have a narrowly defined,
concrete way of looking at things. 
They need proof that God is going to show up…
and a resurrected Jesus is just unbelievable.   

“Those people” may even be us. 
Sometimes we lock the door to our hearts,
hearing the familiar ker-thunk,
for fear of what others might say or do. 
We do not share our hope, faith or love.
We huddle close with our friends.
We keep to ourselves and sometimes we, too,
need proof that God will show up.   

We doubt. 
·        I have applied for how many positions so far?
What if I don’t find work? 
·        What will happen if something goes wrong
with that work project –
the one over which so many people have anguished?
·        How can education be effective if the
school superintendant does not take into account creative perspectives?

For many people,
it is Good Friday every day. 
It seems that the powers and principalities
have the last word. 
We give to Arlington Food Assistance Center
through the basket each week,
we make sandwiches every month, and
yet for many,
food security continues to be a critical, daily issue.
It hits those who cannot help it – children. 
In the Metro DC area, nearly 1 of 3 kids
do not know where their next meal is coming from.[2]
They think that is the end of the story. 

Our scientifically-oriented,
need-for-clear-answers,
desire-for-instant-gratification culture
relies on facts.
Cultural norms require proof.

And yet, God keeps showing up unexpected ways.
What we see is not the whole story. 

Jesus came through the shut doors,
inviting Thomas to
“put your finger here and see my hands,
reach out your hand and put it in my side.”
·        In that invitation, Thomas recognized Jesus
his carpenter hands, his road-calloused feet, his kind smile. 
·        In that invitation,
Thomas responded with an unexpected cry,
“My Lord and My God!”
·        In that invitation,
Thomas’s desire for a first hand experience
of the risen Jesus was granted.

Jesus showed up just how Thomas needed him. 
Jesus refused to let deadbolts block any movement of love
Jesus gave proof, in an unexpected way,
that his death did not have the final word.
He revealed himself. 
·        Despite the locked doors and high anxiety. 
·        Despite the strong need for proof.
·        Despite Thomas’s disbelief.
Jesus showed up.  Unexpectedly, intimately, lovingly. 

This three-part poem by Tom Troeger[3] says this so well:

These things did Thomas count as real:
the warmth of blood, the chill of steel,
the grain of wood, the heft of stone,
the last frail twitch of flesh and bone.
The vision of his skeptic mind
was keen enough to make him blind
to any unexpected act
too large for his small world of fact.
His reasoned certainties denied
that one could live when one had died,
until his fingers read like Braille
the markings of the spear and nail.

I wonder if we can relate to Thomas. 
“…The vision of his skeptic mind /
was keen enough to make him blind /
to any unexpected act /
too large for his small world of fact.” 

This poem reminds us that
God is bigger than our own view.
But wait, there’s more!
After this intimate encounter with Thomas,
Jesus promised fullness of life for
“those who have not seen and yet have believed.” 
In other words, Jesus said that
anyone from then on,
who believes without seeing,
is blessed and will have unexpectedly full life.

Through the proof-needing Thomas,
we are assured of God’s presence
in our believing-without-seeing state.
Death is not the final word.
God shows up in unexpected ways. 

Answers to our most profound and desperate questions
come not because we seek them with focused determination,
but because God comes seeking us
and offers love at the very moment
when it all seems a farce. 

God shows up in unexpected ways. 
·        In unexpected solutions that occur on work projects
·        In abundance of food networks to those who are hungry
·        In creative ideas that become a supervisor’s passion
·        In prophetic voices that speak out for God’s dream
·        In the Vestry affirmation of St. Andrew’s amazing Petty-Madden Organ

Jesus seeks us, finds us, and shares with us –
through locked doors, in intimate ways,
with carpenter hands and road calloused feet. 

And when he comes to find us,
we may not recognize him,
even if he is 2 inches from our face.

However he comes,
it will be unexpected and
larger than we can conceive. 

It will be with a proclamation of peace
and an intimate love that is
stronger than even violent death itself. 

In the wonder of his wounds, he finds us.[4]

May we, O God, by grace believe /
and thus the risen Christ receive /
whose raw imprinted palms reach out /
And beckoned Thomas from his doubt.[5]

Today – look around. 
Look away. 
Look up close. 

God keeps showing up in unexpected ways.
This is not the end of the story.

Amen. Alleluia!





[1] http://wapo.st/HCJ7FR cited on April 12, 2012
[2] http://bit.ly/HOvpsZ cited on April 12, 2012
[3] Susan A. Blain, Ed., Imaging the Word: An Arts and Lectionary Resource, Vol. 2, (United Church Press: Cleveland, 1995), Thomas H. Troeger, “These Things Did Thomas Count as Real,” 186
[4] Serene Jones, Theological Perspective, Feasting on the Word, Second Sunday of Easter, p. 404
[5] Troeger, Tom – prayer on p. 188

Thursday, April 12, 2012

Hands and Heart

On Easter Sunday I used the "flannel graph" board to share Our Story of Jesus to the children in the family service. 

The script outlines the story and the images flow nicely - beginning with God's Hands and Heart up on the board, then Jesus is born (add star, cradle and baby Jesus), then Jesus becomes an adult (remove baby Jesus and put up big Jesus, without robe) and is baptized in the river Jordan (add water strips at ankles, three drops of water at head and place Spirit Dove with Halo above Jesus' head).God's hands and heart stay up on the flannel graph the whole story.  When Jesus is resurrected, he, too, joins God in Heaven - and is placed on the Heart and in the Hands of God.

The felt pieces were soft and about hand-sized.  They were warm and cozy - almost snuggly.  The children sitting nearby reached over to feel the texture and opened their eyes wide with joy at the way the pieces stuck to the graph board.

I still had bits of felt lint on my dress as I vested for Holy Communion. With the image of God's Hands and Heart still in my head, I set the communion table and prepared to serve.  In kairos time - uncircumscribed by any time piece, I became one of those children as I reached to each communicant to serve - their cupped hands formed a warm, tender spot onto which I placed the host - The Body of Christ - and their searching eyes poured out love and met mine - The Bread of Heaven.

My heart and my hands were full of God's presence in that eternal resurrection moment.

How do you recognize God's Hands and Heart in this moment?

Saturday, March 31, 2012

Practice makes...

In the Harry Potter series, Harry enrolls in a class called "Transfiguration," that teaches spells for changing the character of the object. For example, in one scene of "Philosopher's Stone," Prof. McGonagall transfigures her desk into a pig and back.  Harry gets lots of practice in his class and as we know, he does some after-class practicing with his classmates.

This quarter, I'm taking Liturgical Practicum.  It's the class where we learn the appropriate and rubrically recommended movements for the Eucharistic Prayer.  We'll practice with actual hosts, but with water instead of wine.  Oh, and we get to wear the accompanying vestments.This is the course I've been anticipating all year. 

What surprises have I found?  Well, for one, upon review of the "rubrics," I learned that there are fewer movements and gestures needed than are customarily used. Much of the movements are simply elegant, welcoming gestures that invite the congregation into the moment.  That's a relief! 

Further, I am surprised how difficult it is to pace myself and set the cadence for an entire congregation.  In my course, there are only three other students and one supervising instructor priest.  In a giant sanctuary, it's really hard to get a "read" on how the "congregation" is participating (or not!).  I learned that I need to slow down. 

Finally, I am surprised how different it is to say the "other" parts.  I'm familiar with the responsive side, not the offering side, as in, "The Lord be with you." "And also with you."  I usually say the "and also" part.  But as Presider, I'll say the "The Lord" part.  Thankfully, that's why there is the Altar Book to guide and facilitate the Presider remarks. 

I'm grateful for a time to practice, practice, practice.  And for the knowledge that in the end, it is Love that really matters.

What are you practicing in this moment?


An ounce of practice is worth more than tons of preaching.  - Mahatma Gandhi

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

Headwind

The beach stretches out for miles upon miles. 
The waves rhythmically kiss the sand. 
The white puffy clouds appear mid-day, after the fog dissipates. 
It's idyllic for "spring break."

Now is the time to catch up on sleep.
Now is the time to renew my deeper spirituality, tucking into my favorite book by Thomas Merton.
Now is the time to laugh out loud at some non-theological treatises.

And, as we all know, when we slow down is when the worry-brain kicks in.  Yep, I worry about what God has in mind for me.  I've gotten about a half-dozen "no" responses to parish opportunities, plus a few "we put the process on hold."  What to do?

"You kids get outside!" I hear Mom-of-my-childhood screaming.
Or more colloquially, "when in doubt, get out!" 
So it's road biking that calls.  It's mostly flat out here on the Outer Banks, with the ocean on one side and the sound on the other.  It's beautiful and I feel invigorated by the wind in my helmet.  I have to really concentrate on the road - there's sand in the shoulder, pebbles of gravel at the intersections, and dangerously blind driveways that punctuate an otherwise peaceful bike ride.  Wonders await us at the turnaround point - a historic village, an antique bridge, even a pure white egret. Ahhhh, this is peaceful.

Return ride? Headwind all the way.  Same distance, but it feels like twice as far.  I practice standing on the pedals for extra effort to try and keep up with my partner. I notice the rusty nails strewn on the road - which I flew past on the way out.  It seems so windy I can't even hear myself gasping for breath most of the way.

It occurs to me that my first-parish-call search is a bit like this bike ride.  Exhilarating, renewing and in need of discipline on the one hand - but it feels like headwinds right now.  That's okay, I consider, it's a spiritual cycle that is familiar to me.  It's still hard, but it's a cycle and surely, God's just waiting for some big surprise to offer!

So, I offer this old Irish blessing, in gratitude, for this cycle~

May the road rise up to meet you.
May the wind always be at your back.
May the sun shine warm upon your face,
and rains fall soft upon your fields.
And until we meet again,
May God hold you in the palm of God's hand.

Sunday, March 11, 2012

Sermon: True North

Sermon for Lent 3, Year B
Vicki Hesse, Seminarian, March 11, 2012

At one point in my life, 
I tried to get a private pilot’s license. 
I never did finish that, but I did
complete much of the book study,
practical flying and four “solo” flights.

On one of these “solo” flights,
I planned to fly from San Carlos to Modesto. 
I established the route, listened to the weather,
completed the checklist and took off. 
As I approached what I thought was Modesto,
I announced my descent.
“Cessna Tango 5546 on final.”
NO response.  Hmm. Curious.

At 500 feet
I can see in plain letters
the name of the airport traced across the landing strip,
M-A-N-T-E-C-A. 
Ooops.  That’s not MODESTO. Wrong Airport. 
This was my lesson in adjusting
the “magnetic declination” on the compass of the plane.

See, “magnetic declination” is the difference between
magnetic north and geographic north. 
Setting the “magnetic declination” incorrectly
meant that in that 90-mile trip, I was off by 20 miles. 
That error with the magnetic declination 
was a barrier to my arriving at my destination. 

I am sure that Jesus did not have to
set the magnetic declination
on his compass to get to Jerusalem. 
The trail to Jerusalem was probably well worn
by the time Jesus went there.

The trail to Jerusalem was well worn, because
the Passover festival was near.
As a pilgrimage feast, the Passover annually drew
thousands of Jews from all over the region.
The festival itself was a
required religious experience –
every Jewish male over 12 years of age
had to attend,
despite the barriers to God that they experienced.

First, they had to travel
long distances to complete the required activities
as outlined in Leviticus.

Second, since the Passover was major event,
the city and The Temple were busy, not quiet and prayerful.

The event itself was held in the Temple –
A space of ~35 acres, about 1/6 the size of Jerusalem. 
The entire enclosure was paved with colored stones,
surrounded by colonnade of white marble 40 feet high.
There was a lot of activity in and around this place –
not only Jewish people gathering in the temple,
but those who supported the festival
and helped the pilgrims.

Third, the pilgrim had to abide by specific rules -
more barriers to attend to before they worshipped. 

The religious authorities - “The Jews”
supervised the activities that required
pilgrims to sacrifice unblemished cattle, sheep or doves. 

Since pilgrims came from a distance,
they needed to buy an unblemished animal
and thus a fourth barrier;
they had to exchange money, since the sellers
of these animals required temple currency –
not coins bearing the image of a Roman emperor -

Once all these barriers were crossed,
Then, they could worship God.
=====================
Passover was near,
and as a faithful Jew,
Jesus came to the temple,
a sacred space,
a dwelling place of God on Earth.

Jesus entered the temple through the Court of the Gentiles. 
The area set up as an open-air market. 
There were cattle bellowing, sheep bleating, doves cooing,
and people changing money
all necessary activities ostensibly to benefit the pilgrims,
but really – essentially, all barriers to worshipping God. 

Which makes me wonder, is it any different today? 
Do we experience barriers to God?

I heard recently that
10 o’clock on Sunday morning is
the most sacred hour of the week”
and “9 o’clock on Sunday morning is
the least sacred hour”
That is when we experience fractured relationships.
We frantically get the kids dressed,
we slam down our breakfast & coffee,
we worry about being late,
even as we desire to arrive in a mindful, pleasant mood.
We sense our distance from God, in this least sacred time.

I recognize this in myself – even during the week.
Just one more item to do at school,
just one more topic to discuss before this meeting is over,
just one more thing to do before I pray.
Surely then I forgive my loved one,
Surely then I will know that I am loved by God,
Surely then I will spend time with Jesus. 

Does this ring any bells?

The rules of society,
the expectations of our lives,
the demands of our culture,
set up barriers to God,
barriers to noticing God in our everyday life. 

Perhaps the magnetic declination
of our inner compass is off?

And so, by the grace of God,
Jesus entered the Temple scene to remove the barriers.

In a flurry of activity, Jesus interrupted everything.
He found the cattle, sheep, doves, and moneychangers.

With a cord whip,
He drove out the sheep and the cattle.
He poured out the coins.
He demanded the dove sellers to leave.

Jesus upset the market place and
recalibrated what was important.

When he said,
“Stop making my Father’s house a market place!”
The disciples recalled scripture,
From Psalm 69, (Psalm 69:9)
“…zeal for your house that has consumed me”
From Malachi (3:1),
“…the Lord whom you seek will suddenly come to his temple.”
And from the prophet Zechariah (14:21),
“there shall no longer be traders
in the house of the Lord of Hosts
on that day.”

On that day, God was in the house of the Lord of Hosts and Jesus removed the barriers for the people.

On that day, Jesus made himself known as
the locus of God on Earth,
the center of faith,
the focal point of worship.

On that day, Jesus was (and is) the temple –
The one that would be raised /in his resurrection/ on Easter.
The disciples remembered this event and
freed from the barriers established by authorities,
they believed the scripture and
the word that Jesus had spoken.

God made God’s self known on Earth,
through the in-breaking,
surprising activity of Jesus, on that day
in the temple
as the temple
for the temple.

He removed the barriers then.
And he removes barriers now, for us.
As we know Jesus, we know God. 
This is a new and re-calibrated way of looking at the world. 

God acts in surprising ways in our lives. 

And so, we notice:
God, through Jesus, recalibrates our “magnetic declination.”

God intercedes in surprising ways
to break our routines,
to drive out old patterns,
to pour out the coinage we think we need,
to open our eyes to God’s activity in the world. 

These examples occur every Sunday here at St. Andrews.

In the liberating words of an Ash Wednesday sermon,
that reframed what fasting means –
not from food but from what we obsess about.

In the creative formation of the newcomer’s ministry,
that teams up diverse spiritual gifts –
with inspiring hope and fresh ideas to make St. Andrew’s
a radically welcome place. 

In the abundant harvest of “Plot against hunger,” that provides food for hungry people through Arlington Food Assistance Center.

In the innocent voice of the little boy who interrupted the Confirmation service in the midst of renewing our Baptismal Vows when the Bishop asked, “Do you believe in God …” and before he could finish his sentence “…the Father?”
This little boy shouted out, “YES!”

With Jesus shaking things up in our community,
we catch authentic glimpses of God
through sound,
through stories and
in the breaking of bread. 

God, through Jesus’ life, death and resurrection,
has already made a difference in our lives. 

Which is why we come here,
in this sacred temple,
the temple of Jesus. 

We come here to remember
stories of God’s continued action
in our lives and in the life of the church

We come here to experience
the real presence of Christ
in the bread and the wine. 

We come to know the Word made flesh and
made known to us in
radical, re-orienting, re-calibrating ways. 

This Lent, we can look at our calendar and
with God’s help, remove some of those barriers. 

The good news is that
God is active and present in our church
and our every day life.

Is your compass pointing to true north?

Amen